Baptism

So Sunday AJ and I got baptized together. It is a pretty big deal you know. I have been a "born and raised" christian my whole life, but never really grew spiritually. I actually regressed I guess you could say...for a long time. I knew something major was missing. I knew what the something was...GOD. I tried to get back. I started going to church, trying to get involved (not too much though) but after a while it just seemed like I was "going through the motions". I met AJ and he was a "born and raised" Mormon. He fell out of the church in his teen years.  He knew he was missing something as well. He knew there was something much bigger than himself. He was just having a hard time finding the truth. He was very willing to go to church with me.  We went to the same church for about five years when we decided to find one closer. Never did I imagine we would find a home like the Journey. Immediately the fist day we felt something. We felt as if this was where we were supposed to be. We are kinda socially awkward people. The fact that there was a guy from the other church we just left, leading the worship in this one, helped us feel more comfortable. A thirst and hunger grew in both of us. I wanted to know more, know what no one bothered to show me all these years, know what I had been missing out on, know what I should have known. AJ wanted to find the truth, separate what he had been taught as a kid from what he now believes is the truth. He had a real hard time...years and years...trying to figure out the trinity. We started going to the pastors house for a study of John. Finally someone to actually teach us...no, not teach...guide, and help us begin this spiritual journey. I was amazed at how many times I have tried to read my bible. AJ and I even tried to start at Genesis to read all the way through, we just lost steam because we didn't know what we were doing. When Jared told us to start with John, and we did, it started clicking. I could actually understand it...and it made sense. How come no one ever took the time to show me this before? I felt ashamed that I have been a "Christian" my whole life and knew nothing, I just relied on my blind faith. I was just as new to this as AJ. On the day figured out the trinity, I cried. I was so happy. I was astonished at how much he has grown...at how much I have grown...and it was all together! Also at the relationship, friendship we developed (slightly unexpectedly since we are socially awkward) with Jared and Stephanie. They are dear friends of ours now. As we grow we notice that social awkwardness going away. We are changing in so many ways I could never say them all. Oh and AJ realized what was missing....HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS. When he said he wanted to be baptized I was thinking the same thing. I have been baptized before, but in a blind faith kind of way. I was never explained exactly what it meant, the symbolism (just as Jesus died for us we must also die to ourselves), the meaning of the decision...all of that. I felt almost as if it didn't count before. I wanted a second chance, to do it right. When I was told I would be getting baptized with my husband, and that I would get to help baptise him I was astonished. I didn't know what to say. And when the time came it was even more amazing than I thought it would be. It was perfect. There were eleven people in all that got baptized. Eleven people all giving their lives to Christ. Amazing. All I can say is God is good.