This is the stuff.....

So yesterday we looked at two places as an option. Both will allow our American bulldog. One was a basement, 2 bedroom for $600.00 utilities paid and if we paid a $400.00 deposit they would hold it till June for us. Only problem with that is it is SOOOOO small. Like not just "oh this is smaller than we are used to" small....no, the bathroom at first I thought was just a toilet then I walked in and closed the door which was blocking the shower AND the sink....I don't even think our bed would fit in the bedroom....so there are a few things wrong. 1.) Story HATES showers...I will have one cranky OR stinky kid  2.) It is so small for sure we can't fit a desk for AJ to work from home which is a MUST since I don't have a job right now 3.) We will be SO cramped and uncomfortable. I thought about this last one and let me tell you. I thought am I saying no because it is smaller than we are used to and we feel uncomfortable with having to downsize. No, I have been saying for a while we need to downsize, we know we need to downsize because we have been living in a house for three years and you can't go from house to apartment without purging a ton of stuff....this house just would not accommodate our family...let alone a 90 lb dog to the mix of things.

So the second place is perfect. $675 two bedroom...breathing room...BUT they said they want 1st and a $600 deposit now to hold it...meaning we pay May and we are out one month rent we aren't even in the apartment (we need to give 30 days notice...we pay rent today and we can't be out today and I know if we don't give 30 days the landlord won't prorate it...so why waste the $$$ just take the 30 days to pack..) anyway, so she said without it if we let her know on the 10-15th and it isn't rented yet, then if we pay deposit she might hold it but the only way she is holding it without rent is if she can't rent it out...so that might not even be an option when the time comes. No one wants to wait for you to rent their place yet you are expected to give 30 days notice....when you have a kid you don't want to give notice till you know you have somewhere to go....

So on the way home AJ and I were deep in thought trying to figure out what God is telling us to do...slightly, okay, very overwhelmed and stressed to the max. When out of nowhere Story breaks the silence with  Francesca Battistelli's This Is The Stuff.....she started

 ".....This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use"

AJ and I just couldn't help but smile...AJ said "Thank you Story that is JUST what mommy and daddy needed!" I was so over joyed that she lighted the mood that much. Then we all sang the song together. Funny how I didn't think of it till my three year old pointed it out in plain English....
THIS IS THE STUFF.......