So I realized that this is the last week of farm life for Story. At least until next year when we move to California. So I decided to take a few last pics of Story and her FAVORITE animal on the farm....the donkey. She says it is a girl and her name is MR. Donkey. I was going to load a picture but it keeps giving me an error message. Anyway, she enjoys seeing and talking to this poor donkey on a regular basis. She is probably the only person that interacts with him, and so, she has created a bond. She gets out and calls him and he will come out of the inside pen to see her. If there are cows in the way he will push them aside to get to her. When she leaves, he will walk along the fence as far as he can beside her, then sit and watch her go. I don't know who I feel worse for. Her or the donkey. Inside I feel sad because I know that she will miss this. I will miss this for her. This is a way of life I did not grow up with and I think it is awesome.
Aside from "her" donkey, she gets to see cows, and horses quite a bit. She enjoys everyday driving slow past the baby horses and saying hi to them, watching them play and hide behind their moms. This...I WILL MISS. So goes it with closing one chapter and writing another. Someday I will give her this way farm life again.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Thursday, May 19, 2011
two weeks..and then it's curtains....
We have two weeks till we say goodbye (forever) to this house. I am so excited. I feel like a kid at Christmas. We have a new nest of birds in our bedroom wall...again, and they are right by the head of our bed....and LOUD. My dog has been getting out lately and every time he does, he goes to the farm and rolls in a big steaming pile of horse poop. The flies are starting to get bad (when it isn't raining). It has been pretty cold this last week and the heater (surprise surprise) doesn't work...again.
I'm glad I will be able to work out in my living room again. Right now we are scared to because the floors are uneven and our TV shakes! There are tons of things I did not include in my letter to this house that AJ was bringing up to me...mink that ran up on us and got scared/ chased by the dogs, screamed bloody murder, then proceeded to spray....that was actually kinda funny now that I think about it. There are many things wrong with this house that make me so excited to leave. On the other hand...I think, this was our first real place as a married couple. I can't count the "igloo" house we WERE going to buy, but only stayed 6 months. That does not count since it was hardly a house. Now that I think about it...it seems as if a major requirement for "our" houses is "Heat must not work several months out of the year", house must be uneven (the first one...I could push the wall and it moved!), must smell, must have plumbing issues, must have inconsiderate neighbors. We have bad luck with homes. Hopefully we got a winner this time.
Back to the issue..we have been married almost 6 years and we have lived here for almost three. This is the longest we have lived somewhere. Story was just under a year when we moved in here. Aside from the long list of things I will not miss, I am a little sad to go. We have had a lot of firsts here. I think the main thing is fear of the unknown. This house sucks, but I know it sucks, I know it's quirks. I know the landlords...I know not to bug them or I will be told I can get out. I don't however, know the new landlords. I don't know what quirks the new apartment will bring. Hopefully it is nice and there are not many issues at all. (In a perfect world haha)
So it is two weeks. Two weeks to goodbye. Two weeks to a new chapter. Two weeks to the unknown. Two weeks. Fourteen days. Two weeks to "Christmas". Not too much longer now....
I'm glad I will be able to work out in my living room again. Right now we are scared to because the floors are uneven and our TV shakes! There are tons of things I did not include in my letter to this house that AJ was bringing up to me...mink that ran up on us and got scared/ chased by the dogs, screamed bloody murder, then proceeded to spray....that was actually kinda funny now that I think about it. There are many things wrong with this house that make me so excited to leave. On the other hand...I think, this was our first real place as a married couple. I can't count the "igloo" house we WERE going to buy, but only stayed 6 months. That does not count since it was hardly a house. Now that I think about it...it seems as if a major requirement for "our" houses is "Heat must not work several months out of the year", house must be uneven (the first one...I could push the wall and it moved!), must smell, must have plumbing issues, must have inconsiderate neighbors. We have bad luck with homes. Hopefully we got a winner this time.
Back to the issue..we have been married almost 6 years and we have lived here for almost three. This is the longest we have lived somewhere. Story was just under a year when we moved in here. Aside from the long list of things I will not miss, I am a little sad to go. We have had a lot of firsts here. I think the main thing is fear of the unknown. This house sucks, but I know it sucks, I know it's quirks. I know the landlords...I know not to bug them or I will be told I can get out. I don't however, know the new landlords. I don't know what quirks the new apartment will bring. Hopefully it is nice and there are not many issues at all. (In a perfect world haha)
So it is two weeks. Two weeks to goodbye. Two weeks to a new chapter. Two weeks to the unknown. Two weeks. Fourteen days. Two weeks to "Christmas". Not too much longer now....
Monday, May 16, 2011
I'm not homeless!
So we have been talking, for a few weeks, to our only housing option. After tons of calls and looking at places there was only one place here in Utah that became an option for our family. So she has been waiting for other offers, not wanting to hold the place a month for us to give our current landlord 30 days notice (not uncommon). After talking to many, we realized NO ONE will wait for you. So we took a leap of faith and gave our notice without having a place to go. Anyway, so we have been talking to this lady. She has been telling me she was still waiting but we are first on the list. Well, then throughout the last week and a half I have been trying to contact her to see if it has been rented or not. Sometimes she doesn’t answer and she never calls back. We were feeling pretty anxious today, thinking if we have to move to Ca. now, we need to know now, so we can prepare for the long trip and how to get our stuff there.
I decided to text her today and ask if there was any news. She said she was going to talk to her husband when he got home at six. At seven (I am impatient at this point) I text her back to see if she had talked to him. She said her husband said yes…if we had the deposit and can bring it by. Well that was 7:30 by the time she replied. AJ gets paid tomorrow so I had to ask if tomorrow was fine. No answer. So I call her finally at 8:00 and she said she didn’t get the text but tomorrow was fine. So now we know we got the apartment. We know we won’t be worrying about it for the next two weeks. We know what the plan is. This is huge amounts of relief off of us. It wouldn’t have been so bad, but with a three year old you want to know where you are going to live.
I was really torn on what god wanted us to do. I kept praying that if we were supposed to go to Ca. if he would just make it impossible to stay. I was starting to think it was what we were supposed to do since we only found one place suitable (size, pets, and price). Then when the lady wouldn’t just let us pay a deposit at first and didn’t answer or call back, I was really beginning to wonder. We wanted to stay because we want one more year to fix our credit, and pay down debt so when we do go to Ca. we can buy a house. God is good. As scary as it was, I kept thinking “It’s going to be okay, god provides, he always does.” And two weeks before we have to leave this house, God opened a door for us!!! It is amazing how things work out!
SO now I can definitely say “I am not going to be homeless.”
Call me crazy, but we are all LAZY!
I have said it before and I say it again....Americans are lazy! Myself included. Before you go and get all mad at me, let me finish. Be honest, think about it...have you done this? You are walking into target or wal-mart...and you notice you are in front of the MANUAL door...do you proceed to open the door with your own physical strength? OR do you take 4 extra steps to the AUTOMATIC door? How lazy is that? Most of us WILL walk over to the one that open for us. How many times do you see a perfectly fine person hit the handicapped button to make the door open instead of pulling it open themselves? We have cat boxes that clean themselves, vacuums that go all by themselves...all day. Dishwashers, riding lawnmowers, meals in a bag, we can't even cook our own fresh veggies anymore...instead of taking 5 extra minutes we would rather "steam" (boil to death) them in the microwave for 3 minutes. I am guilty of a lot of these. At what point is trying to save time and make life easier just plain lazy?
Take the Internet...Facebook, twitter whatever you use...This is making us so lazy. Not for the fact that we sit in front of a computer (although that too is lazy) but, we are taking the work out of socializing. And frankly it is hurting us. Take me for example. I am somewhat socially awkward. I get on facebook and people I hardly know talk to me we have conversations (it is not the same as a real one because it is easier to talk to people when you are just typing for some reason) so I see that person in real life and it is AWKWARD!
ME: HI how are you
PERSON: Hi, Good, and you?
Me:Good
Me: **BLANK STARE**
PERSON: **BLANK STARE**
ME: Okay have a good day bye!
PERSON: Bye!
It takes the work out of interaction, so when you really have to, you have no idea what to do. What are you supposed to do when you meet an FB friend you really don't know, and it's weird from the beginning...for both people? Throw a Status quote out there and hope you get a comment to respond to?
Another one...parking, we will drive around a parking lot 7 times to get three spots closer to the door. We have drive thrus at gas stations because we are too lazy to go in and get our soda. We order movies on TV so we don't have to go to the video store.....the list could go on forever my friends.
Take the Internet...Facebook, twitter whatever you use...This is making us so lazy. Not for the fact that we sit in front of a computer (although that too is lazy) but, we are taking the work out of socializing. And frankly it is hurting us. Take me for example. I am somewhat socially awkward. I get on facebook and people I hardly know talk to me we have conversations (it is not the same as a real one because it is easier to talk to people when you are just typing for some reason) so I see that person in real life and it is AWKWARD!
ME: HI how are you
PERSON: Hi, Good, and you?
Me:Good
Me: **BLANK STARE**
PERSON: **BLANK STARE**
ME: Okay have a good day bye!
PERSON: Bye!
It takes the work out of interaction, so when you really have to, you have no idea what to do. What are you supposed to do when you meet an FB friend you really don't know, and it's weird from the beginning...for both people? Throw a Status quote out there and hope you get a comment to respond to?
Another one...parking, we will drive around a parking lot 7 times to get three spots closer to the door. We have drive thrus at gas stations because we are too lazy to go in and get our soda. We order movies on TV so we don't have to go to the video store.....the list could go on forever my friends.
Friday, May 13, 2011
Trophies:)
I was cleaning out the garage the other day and I came across a 1988 T-ball trophy of mine. It even has a picture of my old team….I’m second one in on the right in white shorts…and my mom made the banner, pretty cool right?
I was thinking why do I still have this? I am chucking it. So I threw it away. Minutes later Story running around the garage with a Mighty Ducks duck call blowing it as hard as she can, while handing me the trophy saying I was a winner! HAHA Then she kept saying “I am the best blower (duck call) give me the trophy.” So I figured I would let her occupy herself with it and I would throw it away later…..
NOT…..So she took it inside. I must say it has kind of been great having it in the house. She sings, dances, takes a bath, eats, and gets ready for bed and school….all on command. All I have to say is “Aw…Hurry and eat as fast as you can so you can win the trophy for being the best eater!!!!” Or “Don’t cry and whine, just get ready for bed so you can win the prize for the best goer to bedder.” She gets all excited every time…sometimes she doesn’t quite care about getting it for STAYING in bed, but it helps…Dude she SLEEPS with this thing. And when she wakes up….her first words are “Where is my trophy?” I might have to replace the pic with one of her and change the dude at the top to a dancer or something.
I found another one…for first place in a two mile…I had to keep it because it was the only thing I have ever won sports wise (besides 15th place or participation award….) and it was 1st place….Maybe she will get that one too. Who knew useless old trophies can hold so much power. This discovery was definitely a glorious victory…there has been more peace in our home the last few days. I am trying to get rid of useless old crap, but I think I can slide on this a little…not too useless if it helps me out as a mom.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Overwhelming.....
So....I did like 5 hours of cleaning in this small office yesterday, and it isn't even done. I went through all my scrapbook supplies and threw out 2 full boxes and 2 large trash bags of stuff. Not to mention we have had this growing bag of "shred" stuff we have never actually shred (some of it is from when we got married 6 years ago, I found it in the garage) so embarrassing some of the crap I am finding :/ BUT we actually have a shredder now so I was busting through this huge bag with Story last night. She kept saying "Oh my he is really hungry, this robot!", "Feed him more he was starving!!!" and then, I should have known this was gonna happen...it heated up and refused to "eat" one more old bill, receipt, or pre-approved credit card application. Story exclaimed "Oh, no more mommy....he is full!" She picked it up (it is a cheapo that sits on top of a garbage can) and cradled it "He's got a really bad tummy ache. There there it's okay robot. Does your tummy hurt?" I love that kid,. She makes me smile so much.
So I am still in my scrapbook room/ office, trying to not get overwhelmed. Mostly it isn't too bad. I have a long white shelf (that is empty ), a computer I am hucking (it was a hand-me-down hand-me-down...we have had it since before we got married, we never know the password just to boot it up, who knows what is on it...Story used it for a little while but I couldn't find any programs on it....I think the only thing I could open was notepad and paint...and AJ wants to try to sell it....I am vetoing his decision and trashing it!) there is a desk which is part of the bunk bed we are selling because Story hated it, and then a few boxes of small random crap I have to go through. So after I get the three big things out, it won't seem as bad. It has only been three days....three days a room...I SHOULD be done before the 5th of June.
We are gonna have a HUGE yard sale so if you need any of the following....come on by in about 2 weeks (well, 1 and 1/2 weeks now) we will have a three piece bunk bed set complete with dresser, bunks, desk and cubbies; a crib, infant car seat (really good condition), changing table, stroller that goes with the car seat, shelving, paper racks, clothes, a fish tank with supplies, and tons of other really cool stuff that I don't even know about yet.
So I am still in my scrapbook room/ office, trying to not get overwhelmed. Mostly it isn't too bad. I have a long white shelf (that is empty ), a computer I am hucking (it was a hand-me-down hand-me-down...we have had it since before we got married, we never know the password just to boot it up, who knows what is on it...Story used it for a little while but I couldn't find any programs on it....I think the only thing I could open was notepad and paint...and AJ wants to try to sell it....I am vetoing his decision and trashing it!) there is a desk which is part of the bunk bed we are selling because Story hated it, and then a few boxes of small random crap I have to go through. So after I get the three big things out, it won't seem as bad. It has only been three days....three days a room...I SHOULD be done before the 5th of June.
We are gonna have a HUGE yard sale so if you need any of the following....come on by in about 2 weeks (well, 1 and 1/2 weeks now) we will have a three piece bunk bed set complete with dresser, bunks, desk and cubbies; a crib, infant car seat (really good condition), changing table, stroller that goes with the car seat, shelving, paper racks, clothes, a fish tank with supplies, and tons of other really cool stuff that I don't even know about yet.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Freezing cold...
So it decided to get real cold AGAIN....and my heater decided not to work...AGAIN. They just fixed it like 2 weeks ago....if that. I was freezing all night. When Story crawled into my bed I didn't fight it and make her go back to her room. I welcomed the much needed heat :) I let her get all comfy and curled up with her. I actually warmed up after being sandwiched between her and AJ...they are always warm...my heaters :)
DNA was good. I feel pretty dumb that I am just learning Mathew and the tax collector that left everything to be a disciple are one and the same. BUT I am so glad I am learning and growing!!!
AJ and I tackled the garage last night and although it still looks crazy and unorganized...there is a method to my madness and we made progress. We have a growing pile of stuff that goes back to his moms, a trash pile that is more than our keep pile, our ever growing yard sale pile, and a pile of wood for my dad. When the 4 piles of not keep stuff are gone our garage will be pretty empty. Now that we got that taken care of, I feel like I can tackle the house. I am in clean out mode....I am even going to get rid of most of my material and sewing machine I have had since graduation. I need to purge and when we get into a permanent place (IE not renting) I can buy a new one :) everything must go (hopefully I keep this attitude) We have so much stuff, I ALMOST feel like a hoarder...I like to think, collector. That sounds better.
Off to get a coat on because this office is FREEZING....and then time for some purging....Suggee will be getting much deco supplies from me hopefully soon :)
DNA was good. I feel pretty dumb that I am just learning Mathew and the tax collector that left everything to be a disciple are one and the same. BUT I am so glad I am learning and growing!!!
AJ and I tackled the garage last night and although it still looks crazy and unorganized...there is a method to my madness and we made progress. We have a growing pile of stuff that goes back to his moms, a trash pile that is more than our keep pile, our ever growing yard sale pile, and a pile of wood for my dad. When the 4 piles of not keep stuff are gone our garage will be pretty empty. Now that we got that taken care of, I feel like I can tackle the house. I am in clean out mode....I am even going to get rid of most of my material and sewing machine I have had since graduation. I need to purge and when we get into a permanent place (IE not renting) I can buy a new one :) everything must go (hopefully I keep this attitude) We have so much stuff, I ALMOST feel like a hoarder...I like to think, collector. That sounds better.
Off to get a coat on because this office is FREEZING....and then time for some purging....Suggee will be getting much deco supplies from me hopefully soon :)
Monday, May 9, 2011
Whew.....
Just whew. I feel like days are going by like crazy and I haven't even started packing yet. We are supposed to have a yard sale in like 2 weeks...hopefully that will happen. Amazing how coffee can make a cranky girl happy :)
Mother's day was nice. Church was good. Story got dressed good. She even let me do her hair without a fuss. AFTER church was another story. She got super cranky and sensitive. She cried for everything and nothing all at once. She would not listen to anything I told her. I found myself yelling, screaming, threatening (time out, no movies, throwing stuff out....) to no avail. I felt like such a mean mom. It's mother's day and I am screaming....wonder what the neighbors think? Then I told her I was so sorry and I hate yelling at her...and I thought she would reply with a "Me too I don't like it when you yell." and what she said was "I'm sorry momma, I don't like yelling at you either." My heat melts with that child.
Upon her waking up yesterday:
Story: "Guess what I dreamed?!?!?!"
ME: "What?"
STORY: "I dreamed about you riding on a baby horse!.....and guess what?!?!?"
ME: "What?"
STORY: "That baby horse peed on you....yuck!!!!!!"
and in the middle of the night I heard her excited voice:
"PAPER, SCISSORS, DIAPER!!!" what is that a kids grocery list?
Anyway I am trying to build the motivation to start going through this house, and garage. We need to sell, donate, and throw away much stuff....if we stay here and move to CA in a year....I am not moving all this stuff twice in a year!!!! Dust bunnies unite, not one corner will be left untouched........hopefully.
Mother's day was nice. Church was good. Story got dressed good. She even let me do her hair without a fuss. AFTER church was another story. She got super cranky and sensitive. She cried for everything and nothing all at once. She would not listen to anything I told her. I found myself yelling, screaming, threatening (time out, no movies, throwing stuff out....) to no avail. I felt like such a mean mom. It's mother's day and I am screaming....wonder what the neighbors think? Then I told her I was so sorry and I hate yelling at her...and I thought she would reply with a "Me too I don't like it when you yell." and what she said was "I'm sorry momma, I don't like yelling at you either." My heat melts with that child.
Upon her waking up yesterday:
Story: "Guess what I dreamed?!?!?!"
ME: "What?"
STORY: "I dreamed about you riding on a baby horse!.....and guess what?!?!?"
ME: "What?"
STORY: "That baby horse peed on you....yuck!!!!!!"
and in the middle of the night I heard her excited voice:
"PAPER, SCISSORS, DIAPER!!!" what is that a kids grocery list?
Anyway I am trying to build the motivation to start going through this house, and garage. We need to sell, donate, and throw away much stuff....if we stay here and move to CA in a year....I am not moving all this stuff twice in a year!!!! Dust bunnies unite, not one corner will be left untouched........hopefully.
Friday, May 6, 2011
PS...to my house
PS....
Dear house,
I don't know how I forgot and overlooked this one but I will DEFINITELY NOT miss your stinky fart smelling pipes. I loath your pipes...they have made us anti social in not wanting to invite people over. The smell you emit in our house is so foul. Sometimes it is a week long smell that gags me as I walk in the door and sometimes it seems to come from nowhere...which are the days is seems so much worse. I have tried air fresheners and febreeze which only make the house smell like sulfur fart,and flowers. I am glad in 29 days I will not have to smell you again.
Dear house,
I don't know how I forgot and overlooked this one but I will DEFINITELY NOT miss your stinky fart smelling pipes. I loath your pipes...they have made us anti social in not wanting to invite people over. The smell you emit in our house is so foul. Sometimes it is a week long smell that gags me as I walk in the door and sometimes it seems to come from nowhere...which are the days is seems so much worse. I have tried air fresheners and febreeze which only make the house smell like sulfur fart,and flowers. I am glad in 29 days I will not have to smell you again.
Shoo fly in the buttermilk...shoo fly shoo!!!
SO I paid my rent and gave my 30 days notice last night. As I handed it over I was a little scared..."what if we can't find something?" "we are SO busy as is what if we can't pack, yard sale, move...in time?" I was starting to get a little freaked out...okay okay I was almost in panic attack mode. But then I thought "God will provide, he ALWAYS does." SO then I decided to think not of what I have to do, or what I am uncertain about, and think of what I am certain about.
Dear house on the farm,
Although I am happy I lived here to show Story a side of life I never knew....There are some things I will NEVER miss about you:
1.) The THOUSANDS of flies that sit on our car....and when we try to get in we have to flail our arms trying to shoo them so we don't end up with thirty in our car as we are driving...which we do anyway and then we roll all windows down but it doesn't work 'cause then they stop flying and so we drive with the nuisance of flies....I will NOT miss that.
2.) Not having heat for 5 days in freezing weather because that is how long the landlord takes to fix anything and your stupid pilot light went out....
3.) besides the hoards of flies in the front yard (embarrassing to have a yard sale...) the hoards of flies AND MOSQUITOES in the back yard. So bad we can't walk in the backyard sometimes for 30 seconds without have ten bites...for sure chance of west Nile...I will NOT miss you.
4.) Chick downstairs that feels in necessary to vacuum every night at 11 pm....I will not miss worrying if my child will be waking up right after I barely got her to sleep.
5.) To the wasps that infested our house last summer for no apparent reason...you will not be able to keep my out of my home or dive bomb me in my sleep any longer.
6.) Horses who sometimes randomly come in our yard and tear it up so when I mow it is way too bumpy and the vibrations are horrible like using a jack hammer to cut your grass....sorry horses I won't miss you either.
7.) The dang gates (all four don't shut right and they all have a different trick) that people don't know how to shut tight and constantly let my dog out so he rolls in a pile of horse poop and comes home REEKING....won't miss that either.
8.) Besides the wasps IN the house the many that nest above all entrances as if they know....and then wait for you...I will not miss Story getting stung 3 times in 2 days.
9.) The cranky lady at the farm where our other two dogs are....I will not miss our dogs fighting because your dogs start in...and I will not miss you an AJ yelling at each other about how our dogs can be here and you don't think so....
10.) To the outrageous utilities I will much enjoy being gone and letting you suck money out of someone else's pocket. IE try the landlord....
11.) Oh big one! The cotton trees that line the side of the house...I counted 8 of you....you make my life miserable when your cotton flies in my eyes and up my nose, you make our air conditioner sad when you clog it up, and it really sucks to have to sweep it off every few hours and get more cotton in my face.
12.) To the jerk dog down the street who gets into our garage and steals whole bags of cat food and makes a HUGE mess dragging it out...spilling cans, dragging other stuff with it....you are lucky I am moving 'cause I am thins close >< to calling the pound on you!!!!
13.) to our bathtub that thinks is is funny to randomly turn on...whenever...3am....sometimes 16 times right in a row....very funny but you won't be able to play tricks on us anymore.
14.) as the list could go on forever I want to say one more...To our landlord telling us we can get out every time we mention something (heater, bees, mold) we think needs fixing: I will no longer live with bees because I am too afraid to talk to my landlord....I will not miss your attitude.
So even though there are a lot of uncertainties...there is much I am certain of....I won't miss this place as much as I thought I would...and hopefully I won't have to shoo millions of flies either :)
Thank you little house on a horse farm for letting us stay here for 3 years but now, it is time to part ways.
Kelly
Dear house on the farm,
Although I am happy I lived here to show Story a side of life I never knew....There are some things I will NEVER miss about you:
1.) The THOUSANDS of flies that sit on our car....and when we try to get in we have to flail our arms trying to shoo them so we don't end up with thirty in our car as we are driving...which we do anyway and then we roll all windows down but it doesn't work 'cause then they stop flying and so we drive with the nuisance of flies....I will NOT miss that.
2.) Not having heat for 5 days in freezing weather because that is how long the landlord takes to fix anything and your stupid pilot light went out....
3.) besides the hoards of flies in the front yard (embarrassing to have a yard sale...) the hoards of flies AND MOSQUITOES in the back yard. So bad we can't walk in the backyard sometimes for 30 seconds without have ten bites...for sure chance of west Nile...I will NOT miss you.
4.) Chick downstairs that feels in necessary to vacuum every night at 11 pm....I will not miss worrying if my child will be waking up right after I barely got her to sleep.
5.) To the wasps that infested our house last summer for no apparent reason...you will not be able to keep my out of my home or dive bomb me in my sleep any longer.
6.) Horses who sometimes randomly come in our yard and tear it up so when I mow it is way too bumpy and the vibrations are horrible like using a jack hammer to cut your grass....sorry horses I won't miss you either.
7.) The dang gates (all four don't shut right and they all have a different trick) that people don't know how to shut tight and constantly let my dog out so he rolls in a pile of horse poop and comes home REEKING....won't miss that either.
8.) Besides the wasps IN the house the many that nest above all entrances as if they know....and then wait for you...I will not miss Story getting stung 3 times in 2 days.
9.) The cranky lady at the farm where our other two dogs are....I will not miss our dogs fighting because your dogs start in...and I will not miss you an AJ yelling at each other about how our dogs can be here and you don't think so....
10.) To the outrageous utilities I will much enjoy being gone and letting you suck money out of someone else's pocket. IE try the landlord....
11.) Oh big one! The cotton trees that line the side of the house...I counted 8 of you....you make my life miserable when your cotton flies in my eyes and up my nose, you make our air conditioner sad when you clog it up, and it really sucks to have to sweep it off every few hours and get more cotton in my face.
12.) To the jerk dog down the street who gets into our garage and steals whole bags of cat food and makes a HUGE mess dragging it out...spilling cans, dragging other stuff with it....you are lucky I am moving 'cause I am thins close >< to calling the pound on you!!!!
13.) to our bathtub that thinks is is funny to randomly turn on...whenever...3am....sometimes 16 times right in a row....very funny but you won't be able to play tricks on us anymore.
14.) as the list could go on forever I want to say one more...To our landlord telling us we can get out every time we mention something (heater, bees, mold) we think needs fixing: I will no longer live with bees because I am too afraid to talk to my landlord....I will not miss your attitude.
So even though there are a lot of uncertainties...there is much I am certain of....I won't miss this place as much as I thought I would...and hopefully I won't have to shoo millions of flies either :)
Thank you little house on a horse farm for letting us stay here for 3 years but now, it is time to part ways.
Kelly
Thursday, May 5, 2011
This is the stuff.....
So yesterday we looked at two places as an option. Both will allow our American bulldog. One was a basement, 2 bedroom for $600.00 utilities paid and if we paid a $400.00 deposit they would hold it till June for us. Only problem with that is it is SOOOOO small. Like not just "oh this is smaller than we are used to" small....no, the bathroom at first I thought was just a toilet then I walked in and closed the door which was blocking the shower AND the sink....I don't even think our bed would fit in the bedroom....so there are a few things wrong. 1.) Story HATES showers...I will have one cranky OR stinky kid 2.) It is so small for sure we can't fit a desk for AJ to work from home which is a MUST since I don't have a job right now 3.) We will be SO cramped and uncomfortable. I thought about this last one and let me tell you. I thought am I saying no because it is smaller than we are used to and we feel uncomfortable with having to downsize. No, I have been saying for a while we need to downsize, we know we need to downsize because we have been living in a house for three years and you can't go from house to apartment without purging a ton of stuff....this house just would not accommodate our family...let alone a 90 lb dog to the mix of things.
So the second place is perfect. $675 two bedroom...breathing room...BUT they said they want 1st and a $600 deposit now to hold it...meaning we pay May and we are out one month rent we aren't even in the apartment (we need to give 30 days notice...we pay rent today and we can't be out today and I know if we don't give 30 days the landlord won't prorate it...so why waste the $$$ just take the 30 days to pack..) anyway, so she said without it if we let her know on the 10-15th and it isn't rented yet, then if we pay deposit she might hold it but the only way she is holding it without rent is if she can't rent it out...so that might not even be an option when the time comes. No one wants to wait for you to rent their place yet you are expected to give 30 days notice....when you have a kid you don't want to give notice till you know you have somewhere to go....
So on the way home AJ and I were deep in thought trying to figure out what God is telling us to do...slightly, okay, very overwhelmed and stressed to the max. When out of nowhere Story breaks the silence with Francesca Battistelli's This Is The Stuff.....she started
".....This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use"
AJ and I just couldn't help but smile...AJ said "Thank you Story that is JUST what mommy and daddy needed!" I was so over joyed that she lighted the mood that much. Then we all sang the song together. Funny how I didn't think of it till my three year old pointed it out in plain English....
THIS IS THE STUFF.......
So the second place is perfect. $675 two bedroom...breathing room...BUT they said they want 1st and a $600 deposit now to hold it...meaning we pay May and we are out one month rent we aren't even in the apartment (we need to give 30 days notice...we pay rent today and we can't be out today and I know if we don't give 30 days the landlord won't prorate it...so why waste the $$$ just take the 30 days to pack..) anyway, so she said without it if we let her know on the 10-15th and it isn't rented yet, then if we pay deposit she might hold it but the only way she is holding it without rent is if she can't rent it out...so that might not even be an option when the time comes. No one wants to wait for you to rent their place yet you are expected to give 30 days notice....when you have a kid you don't want to give notice till you know you have somewhere to go....
So on the way home AJ and I were deep in thought trying to figure out what God is telling us to do...slightly, okay, very overwhelmed and stressed to the max. When out of nowhere Story breaks the silence with Francesca Battistelli's This Is The Stuff.....she started
".....This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use"
AJ and I just couldn't help but smile...AJ said "Thank you Story that is JUST what mommy and daddy needed!" I was so over joyed that she lighted the mood that much. Then we all sang the song together. Funny how I didn't think of it till my three year old pointed it out in plain English....
THIS IS THE STUFF.......
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Pretty cool...
I was just looking at my traffic and I had blog visits from people in Malaysia, Denmark, and Germany (my sister most assuredly...) I thought it was pretty cool. When I started my blog, it was mostly for me to get everything to help me cope with the loss of my unborn child...which I am still very much dealing with. BUT I never really expected ANYONE to really read it...let alone follow it.
I mean who really cares if I am having a hard day, my daughter spill pudding, what I did on Valentines day with AJ....or that I am just strange and ask questions like why do we need braille at a dive up ATM? I think sometimes I just like to talk and as much as I love love love Story...well she's three...so I talk to myself through my blog pretending someone will read it...and well...obviously YOU are. It's exciting....I have no clue why, but it is.
Anyway, I went to DNA this morning...Jade picked me up because AJ's bronco is not working and is actually abandoned in his work parking lot and he was running late so he didn't have time to warm up the bike...so he took the truck Heather lent us. So, Jade picked me and Story up and we went to Deanne's. Well she has 2 birds that Story was all interested in but she kept picking up every feather she could find and tried to put it on my coffee cup...where my mouth goes...and I don't know if it is just me but that grossed me out!!!! I'm trying to have a discussion but also trying to shoo her hand full of feathers away from my cup without anyone noticing...I don't think I succeeded. Then she kept playing with the cat toys...but there was no cat in sight...and she was all confused....again trying to have a discussion and distract her without being noticed...she says "why are there toys and no cat? Is it pretend?" I didn't really know the answer I had been there over and hour and saw no signs of a cat...no litter box....later I found out it just likes to hide. Then she insisted on bringing all the feathers home...
she is so full of energy sometimes I can't keep up. I think I will take her swimming today to help that out :)
I mean who really cares if I am having a hard day, my daughter spill pudding, what I did on Valentines day with AJ....or that I am just strange and ask questions like why do we need braille at a dive up ATM? I think sometimes I just like to talk and as much as I love love love Story...well she's three...so I talk to myself through my blog pretending someone will read it...and well...obviously YOU are. It's exciting....I have no clue why, but it is.
Anyway, I went to DNA this morning...Jade picked me up because AJ's bronco is not working and is actually abandoned in his work parking lot and he was running late so he didn't have time to warm up the bike...so he took the truck Heather lent us. So, Jade picked me and Story up and we went to Deanne's. Well she has 2 birds that Story was all interested in but she kept picking up every feather she could find and tried to put it on my coffee cup...where my mouth goes...and I don't know if it is just me but that grossed me out!!!! I'm trying to have a discussion but also trying to shoo her hand full of feathers away from my cup without anyone noticing...I don't think I succeeded. Then she kept playing with the cat toys...but there was no cat in sight...and she was all confused....again trying to have a discussion and distract her without being noticed...she says "why are there toys and no cat? Is it pretend?" I didn't really know the answer I had been there over and hour and saw no signs of a cat...no litter box....later I found out it just likes to hide. Then she insisted on bringing all the feathers home...
she is so full of energy sometimes I can't keep up. I think I will take her swimming today to help that out :)
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
The real heros of America
Let me just give a quick "Thank you." to all the military men and women who defend our country, and our freedom on a daily basis. My brother-in-law used to be special ops. until just recently. He has sacrifices so much to serve our country. So has his family. He is CONSTANTLY away from his wife and five kids. He misses out on the kids' firsts, games, plays, awards....childhoods. His wife (my sister) is basically a single parent with five kids. She does the daily track meets, soccer games, dance classes, piano lessons...and then the twins have speech therapy, and Dr. appointments on top of all that. We can very easily forget or not realize how much our military sacrifices for us to make our country safe...and give us more relief. We can very easily overlook how much their families sacrifice as well.
I am slightly relived (and skeptical) about the news of "one less terrorist". Also, I am saddened by America's behavior as a whole about this issue. I remember 9/11 VERY clearly. I remember them dancing in the streets celebrating the many deaths of Americans. I also remember EVERYONE was appalled by the lack of respect. At how anyone could celebrate the death of another human....yet, I saw this in our own towns when the news broke. I am sad because a man lost his life, and will most likely spend eternity in hell. I can't be happy at the thought anyone will be separated from the heavenly father...I wish this on no man. It is not for us as humans to judge...but for God.
"Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when they stumble, do not let your heart rejoice, or the LORD will see and disapprove and turn his wrath away from them." Proverbs 24:17-18
I am slightly relived (and skeptical) about the news of "one less terrorist". Also, I am saddened by America's behavior as a whole about this issue. I remember 9/11 VERY clearly. I remember them dancing in the streets celebrating the many deaths of Americans. I also remember EVERYONE was appalled by the lack of respect. At how anyone could celebrate the death of another human....yet, I saw this in our own towns when the news broke. I am sad because a man lost his life, and will most likely spend eternity in hell. I can't be happy at the thought anyone will be separated from the heavenly father...I wish this on no man. It is not for us as humans to judge...but for God.
"Do not gloat when your enemy falls; when they stumble, do not let your heart rejoice, or the LORD will see and disapprove and turn his wrath away from them." Proverbs 24:17-18
Some days are just...hard!
So yesterday it started when Story woke up. She was crying to start with and she was refusing to use her big girl words. I kept asking what was the matter but it was no help...I still have no clue what she was crying about. Could have been the dog looked at her, or her bear was in the wrong spot when she woke up....literally anything. She is very sensitive lately. Then I thought OK, breakfast and cartoons for 5 minutes while I shower...she has occupied herself for a quick rinse....so why would this day be any different? As I am in the shower I hear the fridge open shut open shut open shut...What is that child doing?!?!?! I grab a towel and hear a loud crash. I run downstairs and she is hiding the last handful of pudding behind her back starring at a huge mess. Pudding everywhere...glass everywhere!!! I snapped I was yelling louder than I ever have before...which is pretty sad because I am a mom who yells unfortunately...I often feel bad. I came uncorked I reminded her she was doing this same thing last night and got into trouble, and she disobeyed me, and she broke the bowl I bought to match my wedding platter.....then she says "But you have another just like it." which is true...I HAD a small one and a large one...so at that I tried to be a bit calmer. I told her to get in the tub. And this was just the start of the day....I'm sure we had at least 15 meltdowns, 6 fits, and who knows how many yelling matches...I am pretty sure we both had about 4 times outs too...sometimes I need to just be away.
Then I feel horrible for screaming and yelling all day because I just wanted to to be good and listen. Then at the END of the day I feel worse because I realize she is 3...she is just a little kid. I know her better than anyone else so I am harder on her than a "normal" person would be. I tend to not look at her age and go off her understanding. She tends to understand a little more than other three year olds. I have been told by principals that I have a seriously smart kid on my hands. I hear people all the time who say "wow that is like talking to a mini adult" so I think I tend to treat her like one and when she pulls a 3 year old move it appals me. I am praying for patients. I don't want to yell at my kid all the time. I want to let her just make messes, get dirty, play how she wants....I will never get these years back and I want them to be fun for her not rigid.
On another note I am very torn on the decisions that have been presented lately. Our landlord is selling our house so we have no idea how long we have here....30 days to who knows how long it will take to sell. I just signed up for school. We have been looking for a place but no one wants dogs. Now people say that is easy, get rid of the dogs....but that is not an option. Duke is Story's we have had him since she was 9 months old. He got hit by a car and we paid 3,000 for him to get fixed...obviously we love him. Raze is 8 years old and a lab. This dog AJ has had since 8weeks...2 years before we got married. This is his hunting buddy. Saline AJ gave to me as a wedding present when she was 8 weeks old. She is also AJ's hunting dog. She has never been a single day without Raze. So obviously we would want them to go together....but no one wants an 8 year and a 6 year old lad let alone both. We are too kind hearted to put them to sleep. So we are keeping out dogs. We might have something worked out for the labs but then we have to find a place that will take Story's dog. And he is a 90 lb American bull dog so that is hard because the size...then you say bull dog and people hear pit bull even though they are two totally different breeds. Then the question is do we speed up our move to Ca. We were planning on leaving in a year do we just go now? Do we stay here as long as we can and hope it is seven months so I can finish school? Do I just scratch school off the list for now. uggghhhh. I have no clue what to do. Why can't god talk to us like Moses? Can I get a burning bush please?
Some days are just...hard!
Then I feel horrible for screaming and yelling all day because I just wanted to to be good and listen. Then at the END of the day I feel worse because I realize she is 3...she is just a little kid. I know her better than anyone else so I am harder on her than a "normal" person would be. I tend to not look at her age and go off her understanding. She tends to understand a little more than other three year olds. I have been told by principals that I have a seriously smart kid on my hands. I hear people all the time who say "wow that is like talking to a mini adult" so I think I tend to treat her like one and when she pulls a 3 year old move it appals me. I am praying for patients. I don't want to yell at my kid all the time. I want to let her just make messes, get dirty, play how she wants....I will never get these years back and I want them to be fun for her not rigid.
On another note I am very torn on the decisions that have been presented lately. Our landlord is selling our house so we have no idea how long we have here....30 days to who knows how long it will take to sell. I just signed up for school. We have been looking for a place but no one wants dogs. Now people say that is easy, get rid of the dogs....but that is not an option. Duke is Story's we have had him since she was 9 months old. He got hit by a car and we paid 3,000 for him to get fixed...obviously we love him. Raze is 8 years old and a lab. This dog AJ has had since 8weeks...2 years before we got married. This is his hunting buddy. Saline AJ gave to me as a wedding present when she was 8 weeks old. She is also AJ's hunting dog. She has never been a single day without Raze. So obviously we would want them to go together....but no one wants an 8 year and a 6 year old lad let alone both. We are too kind hearted to put them to sleep. So we are keeping out dogs. We might have something worked out for the labs but then we have to find a place that will take Story's dog. And he is a 90 lb American bull dog so that is hard because the size...then you say bull dog and people hear pit bull even though they are two totally different breeds. Then the question is do we speed up our move to Ca. We were planning on leaving in a year do we just go now? Do we stay here as long as we can and hope it is seven months so I can finish school? Do I just scratch school off the list for now. uggghhhh. I have no clue what to do. Why can't god talk to us like Moses? Can I get a burning bush please?
Some days are just...hard!
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