When it rains it pours...

So we were about to go to our missional community last night when I went to change Story, she had a "rash" on her torso and a few spots on her back, neck, and arms...well I thought oh great chicken pox...so we called Steph, who is in our missional community and a nurse to let them know we would drop off our stuff, but not be joining them...and to ask if she would take a peak at her. So she said she did not think it was chicken pox. So this morning I called the Dr and set up an appointment. So in just a few hours this morning it went from mostly on her stomach to everywhere! And I mean everwhere. So, we go to the Dr. and find out she is having an allergic reaction to the antibiotics they gave her. She is now on Zyrtec but, it is spreading worse. I guess it needs to get worse before it gets better.

To top it off on Tuesday, I couldn't find a babysitter for my sick kid, and I called into work. I told them I was so sorry and even called a co-worker to cover my shift. She agreed, and I called them to let them know it was covered. Twenty min later, I got a call saying if I didn't show up they would take it as my resignation. I said I have no babysitter and can't leave my three yr old home alone. They said they understood but they "gotta do what they gotta do". Well....after stewing I became a little angry and called another "boss" (or whatever she is) and asked why I got fired if I got the shift covered and she finally said she wasn't aware of that and I was not fired. So yay for that. Hopefully Story is feeling better soon and I can get a steady person to watch her.  Maybe I'm not supposed to work there ha.
  
I feel like just when we have had all we can take, one more thing is added to the plate. Is this god's way of breaking me down till I hit rock bottom and FINALLY FULLY give it completely to him.  I know I can't control these things, and, I do try to put it in his hands but I think at the same time, I still have one hand holding on...as if to say here god, it's all up to you, but I still want SOME say....I guess it doesn't work that way.  Maybe soon, hopefully, I will learn.

As a side note I am feeling a little sad today. Just when I think I'm okay and I have come to grips with things, my emotions get in the way.

Still I am thankful for my blessings and even for my hardships. For one I know there is a lesson to be learned, and two, I know I do not have it half as bad as A LOT of others out there.  I pray for those less fortunate than me. Those who don't have a roof over their heads, or food to eat...yes I have it very good indeed. How dare I feel as if my life is in some way unfair.