When it rains it pours...

So we were about to go to our missional community last night when I went to change Story, she had a "rash" on her torso and a few spots on her back, neck, and arms...well I thought oh great chicken pox...so we called Steph, who is in our missional community and a nurse to let them know we would drop off our stuff, but not be joining them...and to ask if she would take a peak at her. So she said she did not think it was chicken pox. So this morning I called the Dr and set up an appointment. So in just a few hours this morning it went from mostly on her stomach to everywhere! And I mean everwhere. So, we go to the Dr. and find out she is having an allergic reaction to the antibiotics they gave her. She is now on Zyrtec but, it is spreading worse. I guess it needs to get worse before it gets better.

To top it off on Tuesday, I couldn't find a babysitter for my sick kid, and I called into work. I told them I was so sorry and even called a co-worker to cover my shift. She agreed, and I called them to let them know it was covered. Twenty min later, I got a call saying if I didn't show up they would take it as my resignation. I said I have no babysitter and can't leave my three yr old home alone. They said they understood but they "gotta do what they gotta do". Well....after stewing I became a little angry and called another "boss" (or whatever she is) and asked why I got fired if I got the shift covered and she finally said she wasn't aware of that and I was not fired. So yay for that. Hopefully Story is feeling better soon and I can get a steady person to watch her.  Maybe I'm not supposed to work there ha.
  
I feel like just when we have had all we can take, one more thing is added to the plate. Is this god's way of breaking me down till I hit rock bottom and FINALLY FULLY give it completely to him.  I know I can't control these things, and, I do try to put it in his hands but I think at the same time, I still have one hand holding on...as if to say here god, it's all up to you, but I still want SOME say....I guess it doesn't work that way.  Maybe soon, hopefully, I will learn.

As a side note I am feeling a little sad today. Just when I think I'm okay and I have come to grips with things, my emotions get in the way.

Still I am thankful for my blessings and even for my hardships. For one I know there is a lesson to be learned, and two, I know I do not have it half as bad as A LOT of others out there.  I pray for those less fortunate than me. Those who don't have a roof over their heads, or food to eat...yes I have it very good indeed. How dare I feel as if my life is in some way unfair.

Awesome day

Yesterday, Valentines, was great! Story and I went to the store to get all the fixings for a great day. We made heart hamburgers for lunch. AJ came home and ate with us :) Then we went to get AJ a box of Sees candies (wow everyone waits till the last minute huh?) Story was so good she got to pick something from the Disney store...a sleeping Beauty cup...and mommy threw in a small Dumbo snow globe to get her collection started.  Then we headed home. AJ got home and we cooked together a great meal! Top sirloin steaks with sauteed onions and mushrooms to top, bacon wrapped asparagus, and finally homemade chocolate dipped strawberries. It was a nice quiet evening...Story even went to bed early so we could cuddle on the couch together. I was so nice to just unwind with AJ. We are always so busy we don't get time to just enjoy each others company.  And we used our tax returns to get stuff we really needed but have kept putting it off because it costs so much....so it was our presents :) We got a new mattress and a new recliner :) Ahhhh so nice to finally have new things.  Last year our gift to each other was a new TV that isn't a huge cube that weighs 80 pounds haha.  So it was a great Valentines day indeed.

Valentine

I just want to say I have an amazing Valentine. I love my husband with all my heart. I am so glad he decided to spend his life with me....of all the women out there...ME :) He has given me the most beautiful daughter I could ever ask for. I have a totally different life than I was headed for. Together we have grown in faith and strengthened our relationships with God...in turn making our relationship stronger than ever. It is truly amazing to be in a relationship with someone and have "discussions" about differences instead of fights. Before him, I didn't know a relationship like this even existed or even could. I thought is was normal to fight, yell, and hurt. I am glad I had bad relationships so I can really appreciate my husband and everything he does for me. He bends, and sacrifices for our family and he truly cares about our well being and happiness. He truly is the leader of the house and he sets a great example for our family.
Happy Valentines Day AJ.

Super Sick

Man, I haven't felt this incredibly sick since I had the swine flu last year. My whole body aches, my head feels like it will pop the second I sit up. I went to the Dr and he said shoved a q-tip all the way up my nose poking my brain making my migraine worse...just to tell me it isn't the flu or strep his diagnosis..."the gum boo that's going around." really? Is that a medical term....thanks for clarifying it for me. Now how do I get rid of this? I am Praying AJ and Story don't get this. If Story does...I don't know how I can handle a three yr old with this kind of sickness....Hopefully I don't get fired, I have taken a few days off already in the last few weeks in light of everything else. God has a plan for everything....maybe this is yet another test...or just bad luck...or just what comes with working at a gas station and handling dirty money. Either way, I hope it goes away soon. My house needs some attention, paychecks too.